Meet Next Life

I've been doing a lot of self-reflection lately and I've come up with two profound thoughts on my situation. First, I've realized that it is not the fact that I have a new set of circumstances to deal with in my life, but more in the way that I have been approaching them. By this I mean I have dealt with everything in a manner that was more pre-incident rather than post-incident. In other words, I have not come to terms with the fact that my life these days is a completely different experience. While there still might be things that are similar such as my music tastes or other types of interests, the core of my identity and interaction with the world has changed substantially. Until I am finally able to make this realization and live my life in a completely different manner and focus, I will continue to make myself miserable. This reminds me of the movie Jacob's Ladder, a film which touches greatly on the subject of letting go of one's life. There is a particular quote that resonated deeply with me, "If you're frightened of dying, and you're holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away. If you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the Earth." I didn't want to give up the life I had before, but now that I am fully aware my previous cycle is over, I must finally move on. I am hoping that in this new life cycle that I will be much more productive and I perhaps it will eventually lead towards some form of happiness.

The second thing I've thought about is something I heard on Coast to Coast AM last Friday night. The topic for the program was "the cards you were dealt in life" and the host made a particular remark that I found quite profound. He said "regardless of the cards you get dealt in life, eventually everyone will find out that they're the dealer." We all have control over the lives we lead it just greatly depends on a) the ways in which we think and b) the ways in which we react to uncontrollable events. Like it or not, life will always throw curve balls your way, but if you let them destroy you then you're giving away all of your power and control. This is much easier said than done but it is still something I think about quite a bit these days.

I've learned a lot about myself in the past few months probably more so than I've learned in my entire life. Don't hold on to the past to the point where your present and future are crippled because of it. Come to realize that some things will never be the same again and accept that fact when you have no control over the circumstances. Live each day to the best of your ability and don't waste what little time we have here on negative situations that aren't going anywhere. There are so many amazing experiences to have in this world, don't limit yourself to just a small portion of those occurrences. Lastly, know when to call it quits in regards to particular situations; no matter how badly you might want them to work out, sometimes it just isn't meant to be. The sooner you can come to these realizations, the sooner newer more positive experiences will come your way.